The Shame….

The Shame….

I have to force myself to live in the moment. There are times during the day I find myself spiralling, thinking about tomorrow, next week, next month… All those days will work themselves out if I focus on right now. Being better, healthier, getting my ducks lined up…. I got home around 5pm, spun up […]

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Is the Race on?

Short and sweet tonight. Just finished a leg workout. I was saying to a friend tonight how a leg workout isn’t as satisfying as chest or back because you don’t get to see the pump. I didn’t want to bother the skinny crew for a weigh-in so soon after the last embarrassment. I ripped the […]

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Positive Changes…

I last wrote the manblog on Sunday. That night I enjoyed 3/4 of a bottle of wine and 2 slices of pizza. I have not had a drink since, not tonight either, once I’m done writing this I’m getting in the sauna for a cycle.Sunday, we picked up Charlotte’s Xmas present, a boston terrier. It’s […]

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What to do…What to do…

Things are moving along here. Charlotte has a tournament in Ottawa this weekend, and it’s a real joy to come home and hang out with her, eat our dinner, and watch a movie. Ave comes and goes, and eats with us if she is here. The house is great. It’s cleaner than it’s ever been, […]

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What day is it?

I took my first injection of hormone replacement therapy today. .17 ml of testosterone enanthate 3x per week. ChatGPT offers this:Your Actual Dose 👉 That’s textbook TRT and a very reasonable starting dose. What to Expect at ~100 mg/week (3× weekly) Weeks 1–2 Weeks 3–6 Weeks 6–12 Stable testosterone levels with low estrogen issues for […]

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TRT…T-?

The good doctor has approved me for TRT. I will share the journey. Where to begin? I had a doctor’s appointment today (2, but we will get to my regular doctor later.) I’m going to share it all…so here goes… Total Testosterone 19.4 nmol/LFree Testosterone 311 pmol/L Both of these numbers are 100% normal for […]

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The End?

The end of 2025 has been a bright and happy place for me. My household is happy; the kids are thriving here, and we enjoy each other’s company every night.Last night, after a late practice, Charlotte and I had hot pot in front of the TV, and watched a movie; it was great. The best […]

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