Am I Changing?

January 2026

Am I Changing?

Not my best evening, sad… Charlotte and I had planned to go to hot yoga tonight, but I cancelled at the last minute. Not feeling my best. I talked to a friend of mine about the event leading up to the feeling, a Mel issue, and she told me to have a beer and chill […]

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life…the journey…

How did we get here? Was it love? Did falling in love lead us to this moment? How many times have we fallen in love? Me? Russett? Krista? Jeremy? Tbag? Slab? What is missing for us? For me? …….I’m a tough case. I want what Ev was.Is that easy? Touch me….When we went for a […]

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The Shame….

I have to force myself to live in the moment. There are times during the day I find myself spiralling, thinking about tomorrow, next week, next month… All those days will work themselves out if I focus on right now. Being better, healthier, getting my ducks lined up…. I got home around 5pm, spun up […]

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Is the Race on?

Short and sweet tonight. Just finished a leg workout. I was saying to a friend tonight how a leg workout isn’t as satisfying as chest or back because you don’t get to see the pump. I didn’t want to bother the skinny crew for a weigh-in so soon after the last embarrassment. I ripped the […]

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Positive Changes…

I last wrote the manblog on Sunday. That night I enjoyed 3/4 of a bottle of wine and 2 slices of pizza. I have not had a drink since, not tonight either, once I’m done writing this I’m getting in the sauna for a cycle.Sunday, we picked up Charlotte’s Xmas present, a boston terrier. It’s […]

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What to do…What to do…

Things are moving along here. Charlotte has a tournament in Ottawa this weekend, and it’s a real joy to come home and hang out with her, eat our dinner, and watch a movie. Ave comes and goes, and eats with us if she is here. The house is great. It’s cleaner than it’s ever been, […]

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What day is it?

I took my first injection of hormone replacement therapy today. .17 ml of testosterone enanthate 3x per week. ChatGPT offers this:Your Actual Dose 👉 That’s textbook TRT and a very reasonable starting dose. What to Expect at ~100 mg/week (3× weekly) Weeks 1–2 Weeks 3–6 Weeks 6–12 Stable testosterone levels with low estrogen issues for […]

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TRT…T-?

The good doctor has approved me for TRT. I will share the journey. Where to begin? I had a doctor’s appointment today (2, but we will get to my regular doctor later.) I’m going to share it all…so here goes… Total Testosterone 19.4 nmol/LFree Testosterone 311 pmol/L Both of these numbers are 100% normal for […]

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The End?

The end of 2025 has been a bright and happy place for me. My household is happy; the kids are thriving here, and we enjoy each other’s company every night.Last night, after a late practice, Charlotte and I had hot pot in front of the TV, and watched a movie; it was great. The best […]

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