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The Lonely….

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The Lonely…

At what time yesterday did I make the switch to misery…

It wasn’t on my way to Brockville…the drive down the 416 towards Ev….holding discussions with her in my mind regarding bringing Charlotte to her grave…which I decided against….

It wasn’t dropping the kids at grandma’s….

It wasn’t on my way back…pressed for time…discussing a quick visit with Ev….

Yes….I talk to Ev a lot in my head……

wracking……..

I wish I didn’t………..I wish………

No…I wasn’t in quicksand then…I stopped and said a few words to both Ev and her Father….A quick wave to Father Brent on his lawn mower and off I went……….

I was still okay then……..

Am I okay?

Am I okay……….I want to be okay so badly…..

Rhi and I went out for dinner and after I sat with my neighbors in the garage a bit….we talked about a lot of things…Ev included….and I was good….no quicksand then….

They left….another guy dropped by….he left…..

And I shut the garage door…..I hung out in there a bit….cleaning up…listening to music…..

I miss Ev………………

I’ve been good….it’s been a few days without a good wrack….so today I may pay the price….

The price of love………………………………..quicksand.  I’ve got this mastered….it’s just pain……

The Quote of The Day

In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing.
–Mignon McLaughlin

I will be saved from this quicksand….will it be recovery….no….but I will be saved….

No Talk of fat today other than I am….

I’ll switch it up…I’ll be the only fat one left at current rates….

I miss my babies….home soon….

Babe….I love your face….XO

Have a great day.

XO

 

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