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Day 6… Life after Life?

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The Man Blog goes on…

Why?  For me it has to…another reason to get up…I have a few, but another does help.

My babies….

Well folks my regular flow of consciousness that hit these keys in the past won’t always be as joyful and funny as it once was.  But we will have light moments…

We have to…shit, at 7:04 this morning I cried to the guy at the cash at Mac’s milk…that is funny isn’t it?  I choose to find humor in my grief now…  I have to.

This morning I woke up and got milk…yesterday morning…I woke up wanting to be with my wife…it wasn’t a feeling I have ever experienced before…wanting to tie a rope…

I spent the next few hours at Chapters trying to find a good book on grief…let’s face it, I’m ill equipped to do this with the head I have on my shoulders…A reactive hopeless romantic…driven around day to day by his heart…

Ya ya…no one would see that in me…well a few…less…  🙁

That’s no good, I’ll have to drink some water to replace those tears.

Where was I…Chapters…self-help…

They might want to organize this stuff kids, I mean there are 2000 self help books organized by author…I start at the A’s…

Alice Aert…You can be a strong woman in 20 days….nope that’s not it…

Art Olive…Working when Viagra doesn’t….geez….nope

Bert Thunder…Beat em at their own game….nope

……….this goes on and on…  I leave, head over to future shop with Syd to walk around and see Michelle Auns, my neighbor.  She has seen me racking tears so she has gotten used to it a bit…not like the cashier at Canadian Tire yesterday that was ever so slowly reaching for the panic button as this 200 plus pound guy in front of her is convulsing with sobs…

Michelle and I discussed the outlay at Chapters, my impending suicide, and other things and off Syd and I went to run some errands.

Dan’s darling wife Michelle went to chapters, absorbed 2000 titles, and delivered a few books to assist in my trip back to sanity.

Let’s take a moment here to bask in the glory of this image…

Evelyn Kindervater-Wheeler

 

That’s it…I’m messy…

The man blog of old….I’m 217 pounds this morning…the greatest diet in the world…stress.

Can’t eat…don’t care.

In the coming days, weeks and months I have hundreds of people to thank for what they meant to Ev and I, for what they did for us then and now, and most importantly…for how in Ev’s final week’s…giving her the power to understand how many people loved her.

Because kids…she didn’t know it…it was a proclamation a week before she lost her battle…

I love you all for showing her that…I love myself for it too, because she was that kind of woman, selfless…

A bright light she couldn’t see…

Before I go today I thank the GBG, Mandy and Beagle, Mike Herzog, Darren of Fuk, My neighbors, and my community, those close and far…there are lots more but yesterday…these few people actually touched me…

As the man blog continues, my journey to better health…hopefully…I will have to share my grief as well as my normal banter living the life of a fat man…

Beagle and Parker…a reprieve for a day…

The Quote of the Day:

I love your face

Victor Wheeler to Evelyn Wheeler, Evelyn Wheeler to Victor Wheeler…

Love you babe…thanks all…

Cold…warmer tomorrow with rain…I think…

Cheerio

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