The End of the Man Blog….

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The Man Blog as most of you have known it will now come to an end…..the man blog will continue for me….but it won’t be what it has been for the past 2 years….

I hope the man blog is once again a story of a man enjoying his life, his friends and his waistline.

20 of you will read it….once in a while….which is as it was….me…Ev….Russett, Mandy…close friends….c’est tout.

This is not the first end of the man blog I have written…there are dozens of posts written not published the last few months.  It was a tough bit between Halloween and now…Christmas….a disaster.

During that time I’ve realized I must focus on my children, I have to bring my life back to what matters most….them.  That or I lose the short time I have left….with them….with life…..

So…..I survived 2 years without Ev.  During that time I have lived so many wonderful moments….and suffered so much anguish.  That leaves me a bit lost….I’ve had to…..minimize my emotional expenditure…..seems awfully un-passionate to say….but there it is.

I think some people that have watched me closely may notice but for the most part I haven’t changed….I may have reverted….but not changed.

I’m not happy to be here….I’m not….but it’s less painful and if I focus everything I have left on the kids….well….I think it will be just fine.  In a bit….spring….future hopes….maybe a bit more color in the world will bring me around.

Right now….it’s not worth being out…not much anyway.

My mother died this month.  I miss her terribly.  Someone else I used to call when I was on my way to pick up Syd….running errands….another voice I’ll never hear again….one I love.

She managed to live 68 short years….maybe that means I have as few or as many as 22 left…..short time….Charlotte would be just 28….too young to miss me……………

The Quote of The Day

A flower cannot blossom without sunshine, and man cannot live without love.
Max Muller

From now on I’d prefer tears of joy….tears suffered via the great accomplishments of my children….tears for my friends good fortune….tears of love and life.

I do try….

I have been lucky enough to have shared time with a wonderful person lately, Ev would approve, the girls out with her tonight enjoy some time without dad….having some laughs.  Charlotte has someone extra to cuddle…..and me….I have someone to kiss….I do love a great kiss.

I thank and apologize to some of my friends….Kevin and Russett….I’m sorry I haven’t made the pub or poker as frequently as I once did….I love you guys and am forever in debt that I knew you’d never look at me sideways when you should have….Arthur….what can I say without outing you   lol….all the golden boys, all my hollow trail gate crew….I thank you all for suffering my tears….I thank you all for suffering my bitterness….I find myself quicker to react than I should be the last 6 months…..I’m very sorry……

I have been lucky in life and love….very lucky…..it hasn’t been easy…it won’t be….but we will all raise our glasses many more times together God willing….

I love you all.

Mom….I miss you….I wish you would come by just one time….

Ev…..Babe….I love you more than life…..I’d join you in an instant if you hadn’t left me with these babies….I promise I will do my best……..I love your face forever.

I wrack on the man blog for the last time….thank you all for reading….

XO

  1. Caroline Coligan
    Jan 25, 2017
    I love reading your journal. I would never disparage it by calling it a mere blog. You have shared your soul with us and we have all been able to relate to your pain, not for such a tremendous loss as this, but still able to relate in each our own way. I for one shall miss it very much as I enjoy checking in to see how you are doing and seeing through your eyes, how Ev's and your girls are growing up.
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  2. Anonymous
    Jan 25, 2017
    I as well will miss your blog. Take care of yourself.
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  3. Anonymous
    Feb 18, 2017
    I too will miss your Blog, Victor. I knew Ev many years ago and she was a wonderful person. I wish you a lifetime of good health and happiness.
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