My second attempt tonight….

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Why not…this is my second attempt at a man blog tonight, the first filed away in the unpublished blog folder to remain hidden until some time…who knows….

This is it.

I spent the night cleaning….I clean best to music….cranked…dancing around the kitchen trying to get this house in order…and almost impossible task with 4 young ladies….but the music makes it easier….

As does the dancing….

I love to dance….I don’t like to sit still unless it is under the shawl of interesting conversation…preferably with someone properly connected to themselves and the rest of the universe…am I….I’m not sure…but I do try…

I am connected to a group of people I love very much…and much of a few of the never to be published man blogs discuss that deeply….

The first man blog tonight started saying I might wrack tonight…and I feel that building as I prepare to lay out how I’m feeling….

And that is loved…..Life may not have been kind to me….but I love it…and I put everything I have into that….

As I dance around the house, something I’ve found myself doing more and more often…back to days long ago….I do suffer….

Very shortly I’ll head up to bed, tonight Charlotte sleeps in her own room…so alone it is for me and likely a better nights sleep, although in Toronto alone a found myself awake every hour or so….shaken by the memories of other times……

I’m not sure about sharing my feelings sometimes, I hate having to do it….to show my tears to the world….

I don’t want to be this….I just want to be……without this…..

You know what feelings these are……fear…..weakness…….these things can not define me….

I fight my tears tonight until the back of my throat aches……I punish myself to pretend to be something I’m not………….

And I publish my lies like a fool………….

Babe……thank you for making me this person….for showing me what everything means………

The Quote of the Day

I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.
Audrey Hepburn

I believe in green….I love to laugh and hate that I spent some years not doing enough of it….kissing…..there can never be too many kisses.

I try to be strong, but the definition is often misunderstood…but I try…sometimes I do make mistakes.

We all should be happy, and there is nothing more beautiful than a smile placed on the face of another…it will shine inside….

I’m not sure what tomorrow will bring…and miracles….well………………I haven’t thought about miracles like I used to…..

Now I will let go…..time to wrack………

XO