what the faq…..

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Have I ever done anything this hard in my life….I don’t think so….nothing I recall….not even close….

I don’t know…I just don’t….I can’t even wrap my head around it….

You see…you think you’re good…you’re recovering…better….but really you’ve just lied to yourself….you’ve pulled the wool over your own eyes….

Something in your brain has risen up to tell you everything will be okay, it all seems very believable….in reality though, you’re simply not dealing with it….and you don’t realize it because….well….it’s your make believe….you can rationalize you’re doing as well as you want to believe you are…..

Now…does that make any sense….as I sit here with my scrunched up face….I don’t know

This is what I do realize….I’m 3 days away from 9 months…….I spent the first 5 or 6 months of that trying to talk myself into believing I was going to be fine….that I already was….

The big issue was that I was simply waiting to find Ev….I figured she would turn up somewhere….or just come home….stroll up the driveway and into the house………

Ya……you do that…..you imaging the door is going to open up and she is going to walk in and tell me she missed me…..

………I’m waiting right now for that door to open……………….

So….where does that leave me in a rational world…..well I just continue to make believe…….

After those first 6 months it got a bit easier….I gave up………I did……….I just said screw this and gave up…..I let my emotions go, I lived in a different place……

It was good…it was………..but I can’t do that forever……nooooooo…..I have to go on living…..

I have to continue to be in pain……….

In just a moment I’m going to write the man blog weigh in…..a good bit of distraction….

Distractions….very important……….

The Weigh In

I’m at 227.2 pounds and going down this week.  I’m going to try my best not to overindulge in anything…..a bit of what I like…and an attempt at lowering my carbs…..We shall see….

The Iranian Joins: Pirouz

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Pirouz has offered up a few weigh ins that I have yet to post…let’s have a look….

oh…can’t do that…Pirouz has offered up his weight and consumption on the GBG whatsapp thread….try going through that for meaningful info…nope.

 

I do know this…He said he was too fat for his height…..he is just under 3 feet ish tall….I think…or so it seems…..

So if he is too fat for his height at 3 feet tall where do Kevin and Seamus fit in….

Parker

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Kevin offered up 2 things….a weight of 256 pounds and the word beer….see above for more info…..

Seamus

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um….Seamus didn’t offer up an update…he promises to weigh in when he gets home….for more info….you know what to do….

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Vinnie

Vinnie is not afraid to eat…the list of food that this man consumes any and every day is nothing short of amazing….pasta…beer…pizza…beer…pasta…beer…..now its time for lunch………cake….pasta….oh wait….a salad with pasta and pizza….and a beer….dinner time!!!!!  Starving….had a steak….with pasta…..stuffed with pasta…..and a beer….

Geezus….

Vinnie weighs in at 177….he is packing the pounds on this September!

Boyling

Boyling is down…almost breaking into the 180’s at 190.2 pounds.  I’m not sure what Boyling is up to but its working….you know….I don’t see Boyling at the pub very often….maybe there is something to that….

Day 30
Arthur

Down to 189 pounds after…let’s add this up…

5 beers +

3 red bull and Vodka + pasta +

7 beers + 2 vodka rb + chips curry ribs and a ceasar salad +

4 beers a burger and fajitas…..

NO SNACKS he says…..

grand total 16 beers 5 vodka red bull and 27000 food calories….and he lost a pound because he says he didn’t have snacks……..

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This photo speaks for itself.

Andy and Turkish

you never see these 2 anymore….they hide out….international spies perhaps…

Trafford is up after 1 and a half litres of rum….now 179 pounds

Ayhan is down I’m betting….but nothing from him today…so a quick photo of turkish it is.

AyhanThe Quote of the Day

Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time.
Thomas A. Edison

Here goes nothing….I think I have about 200 mornings to survive until summer vacation….breakfast…lunches….then dinners….laundry….

I mean I did load after load of laundry this weekend and ended up with 20 towels in the laundry room when I woke up this morning……

WTF!!!!!!!

This was NOT the plan Babe……..

I love you….and I miss you always…..too much…..toooooo much……..