Another day….another ******** day…..

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Yep, another day is upon us here at the man blog….another day of fighting tears at the grocery store…another day of moaning….another day of looking into the eyes of strangers and wondering if they see me battling…..

Look….just 5 days away from 8 months….

I haven’t gone back to reread the man blog but I do believe it was about February that I was sure I’d be dating……lol….laughable….

Here I am….punishing myself daily………..

Those really close to me I’m sure realize I’m in over my head…..and days like today….treading quicksand…..they are more right than I care to admit……

The thoughts that swirl around aren’t as good as they should be……the pain does not rest on days like today………..

But so what….this is my life….and I am living it…..it will improve, days like this will come few and few and I will agonize over them more and more…..and it stops….

There is a cure….I know there is………..I need to be swept away……..the question I ask myself is how hard I will fight against it….can it survive the battle….will I……..

So I write this stuff here….things I rather leave to myself….these things that explain just how weak I feel…..how hopeless I am………I am fighting though….

Like the old dog said “I’m not done fighting yet”

Poker tonight……a time to give up….an excuse to dissolve myself……

We shall see….I have things I want to do and unhealthy lifestyle choices lead to wasted days…..Days I rather not waste…..

Short and sweet?   Short for sure……..

Listen…..we are all in the same boat….every single one of us will suffer……I’m just trying to prepare you by sharing my journey.  I hope yours will be better…..but it will happen.

Some may survive this without having to mourn the loss of another……but in the end you’ll be facing one of 2 things…..a life you mourn leaving, which means you’ve made wonderful choices…..or the alternative….which means you missed the entire show.

The Quote of The Day:

Transformation is a process, and as life happens there are tons of ups and downs. It’s a journey of discovery – there are moments on mountaintops and moments in deep valleys of despair.
Rick Warren

I do worry about the present transformation…..I wish you all well with yours though.

Have a great day!

Babe…..I saw a green malibu today…..wishing my ball cap was on the trunk and we were sucking faces!!!!!!!  I love your face forever……..
XO

I wrack….so what…….

  1. kimangeline.l@gmail.com'
    Kim
    Aug 12, 2015
    "Some may survive this without having to mourn the loss of another……but in the end you’ll be facing one of 2 things…..a life you mourn leaving, which means you’ve made wonderful choices…..or the alternative….which means you missed the entire show." profound words Vic - they hit home. sending you love
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  2. Anonymous
    Aug 12, 2015
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  3. Anonymous
    Aug 13, 2015
    Perhaps you are battling so hard because it isn't the right battle. Or maybe not the right time. Maybe you won't fight so hard if it is something you really want and/or the timing is right.
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