A pleasant man blog?

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Busy day today….kids back from a weekend at grandma’s….a break?

Well as usual it’s nice to imagine having a day or 2 without the kids….it’s another to survive it…who is here for who….it makes you realize how much they mean to you when they are away….

All you have to talk to during those times is yourself and your memories……and neither answer….not positively anyway.

My weekend, fighting the bird…engine in…turn the key…issues…..today I’ve decided to pull the engine and transmission out, remove the front sheetmetal and put it back in as one unit…with a new and improved hydraulic clutch.

Will I drive the bird again this year?  I’ll have to focus hard on it if that is going to happen….and once this is all back together I still need to figure out how to squeeze the hood closed….

Redneck issues….no big deal.

I’m wound up tight today though….stressed out…having made the trip under the car to back on my feet….how many times in the past week….hundreds….more…..thousands…..

Although I’d love to have a beer right now to relax and take the edge off the day I have soccer tonight…dinner is on the stove…and I need a quick shower to get car dirt off my body before I really start sweating chasing a ball around….

Anyway….where am I at….I don’t know…you think you start to have things figured out…but that means what?  Last time I thought I had things figured out I punished myself….hard….emotionally I broke down, and fixing that using the methods at hand may come with massive down days…I’ve got things to do!!!!

Ya….I’ll get through this man blog without shedding a tear….why not…..

It’s not so bad…place yourself in an emotional state that you hate and punch out a couple words to update everyone and allow yourself to realize that you’re going to stroke out if you keep this up……

Tomorrow my brother in law will swing by to help with taking the bird apart, likely one or 2 other car guys too…we will drink a few beers and laugh……

Until then……I have a few ideas…..

As far as being fat goes….I’ve lost a bit of weight….not getting on the scale.  We will see how that works out until September when all the boys are going to give it a good go…..

Do I even want to do this today….reread these words and publish this to the internet…..well…what’s done is done….

tense…..

Babe…..I wish you were here to make a plain old day like this better….we’d watch a show on the sofa……that sofa has got to go by the way……I can’t stand it without you…………….

We will wrack…..let the punishment begin!

 

The quote of the day right…….

There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.
Maya Angelou

And that folks….is why we are here……….

Take me……………one way or another.

 

  1. Anonymous
    Aug 12, 2015
    Victor; I read your blog from time to time. Not sure how I came across it, somehow along the way on my quest to find others like me to talk to, others that have an understanding of this crazy life. I lost my husband a year ago and we have 3 young children, I will not be so bold as to say I understand what you are going through, as our life's, our loves and our losses are completely different , but some of the stuff in your blog i read and think, "ya , i get that"
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    • Victor Wheeler
      Aug 12, 2015
      Well the man blog does not tell the entire story...it can not. My real life offers up a thousand moments of happiness and pain every day that I simply forget or don't bother to write about, I'm sure yours does too. All the best, touch base anytime. Vic
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