Fat is what fat does….

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Well it’s the fat man blog today….it has to be….I’m packing it on!

I’m 20 pounds heavier today than I was in February….232.6 pounds…20 pounds!!!  It’s no good and I have to get it under control today….one dinner tonight and a beer free weekend….

How am I packing on all this weight….well the constant celebration of life….to extremes…so I’ll back off that for a few days.

To recap….yesterday I took it easy…I did go to the pub to make an appearance with the boys….I had a single gingerale.  I have had enough this week already and even though Canada Day makes for a great excuse to have a few beers….it seems like Monday night soccer and Tuesday golf tournaments also make great excuses…..

And 3 dinners nightly….look at me now cruising up on the scale and not too pleased with myself for it…..

I was doing much better starving my grief than feeding it……

On that note…..let’s talk a wee bit about grief before I get to the other boys….funny pictures…..let’s talk about love lost and sadness……..

During my nice quiet day yesterday I had lots of time to think about my wife….my life…..Charlotte and I cuddled up and watched a few movies….Ave came and sat with us and we enjoyed our moments together……..

In my life though there is a constant…….Ev is missing…..that is my constant thought every moment…….the static in the background of my life…….

I miss Ev so much…….every second……………………..I still can’t believe she is gone….I know she is…..but I can sit here looking over the computer out to the driveway…..and imagine seeing her walking to the front door……..

……a wait for it to open………………..

Anyway….that’s my life……it’s a big life…..it includes more fun than any man deserves…..and so much pain…..so many tears……

Okay…..so…..I’m hitting a diet….one that includes food, no starvation diet here…..let me go back and dig up the initial weigh ins:

Victor    229     now 232.6       +3.6

Trafford     170.8    now 176.8   +6

Parker      248     now   252     +4

Beagle    205      now 188    -17

Boyling    203.5     now   194.1     -9.4

Seamus    285      now     269      -16

So…no weigh in from the senior citizen…..ya….let’s break the mold here….no VHS cover today….what might we find….

Oh….Andy just weighed in….I had to go back up there and edit his number…..up….

So up it might be…..

Andy Trafford    UP

Andy is just happy the chicken came along…..he might be peckish later….

Andy has just informed me he is back on the shakes…a diet plan for sure….I think I’m going to edge towards lighter meals and running…such a beauty that Andy Trafford, his current goal is to lose 12 pounds by July 24.   Half a pound a day…..

I’m going to get my sorry ass back into the teens by then, what is that…..13 pounds……okay…..today I plan on losing 5 of them.

That means a bit of a run….we will see just how well the new running goal goes….me legs are still killing me from soccer…..old frigin man disease….

And I’m going to eat right, lots of sugar from berries….some protein from yogurt and cottage cheese…..no chips….and NO BEER!

The Quote of The Day

There is nothing more helpless and irresponsible than a man in the depths of an ether binge.
Hunter S. Thompson

Why this Hunter Quote today…well it means so many things to different people in my life and will bring it all together….

First…..having just taken part in what I would describe as the Hunter S.Thompson invitational golf tournament….it’s still very fresh on my mind….and for those of you that don’t know, Hunter was an early hero in my life….and as a younger man I may have dedicated a 10 thousand kilometre road trip into trying to get to the bottom of this ether binge thing….

Those days would seem to be long behind us old boys though….I suppose….but life does change the way we look at where we should be and what we should be doing…..

I do believe the edge has been found….as Hunter would say, and I paraphrase….you’ll have to go over to know you’ve been there….

So….I have been tested many times….and here I am, for better or worse….

I couldn’t have managed it half as well other than I’ve been surrounded by so many great people….the luckiest man….

Babe….thank you for loving me………….

XO

  1. Anonymous
    Jul 03, 2015
    Good Morning Vic! I am a big fan of your blog... Good days and bad! I was wondering if i could ask a question? If its too personal, i understand. I think you had said that your beautiful wife who to me, seemed perfectly healthy, passed due to colon cancer. How does that happen to such a healthy person? Was there a family history? Again if i am being to personal, i completely understand! I am so mistified by this tragedy! I wish you a wonderful day as well!
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    • Victor Wheeler
      Jul 03, 2015
      Well...I don't think cancer cares how healthy you are... Let's see....it was over 2 years ago when Ev really started feeling sick...in my opinion during her training for the fitness competition her cancer moved from stage 2 or 3 to 3 or 4....it was at this time that she told me she was feeling badly. Sadly she really was a competitor and didn't want to give up on it...even though I pleaded for her to do so... She had been feeling tired and sick and was complaining constantly to her doctor...after about 18 months of complaining she was offered a colonoscopy, which was due in January. About that same time, a year ago...I noticed that she was losing weight even though she wasn't working out...I told her and she broke down...so I didn't mention it again....... She wouldn't have made it to her January appointment but a new doctor, a young woman in one of her bootcamps, offered to take her on as a patient and she was in for a colonoscopy shortly after where we realized she had stage 4 cancer. It is most likely genetic but I haven't asked for those results as the doctor told us it would affect the children's ability to get life insurance if they know...so...a secret. The ladies will have to start going to colonoscopies in their mid 20's...which is when Ev's cancer likely started. The doctors believe she had cancer for 7-10 years... Anyway...it's very hard to type all this out as it comes with so many what ifs...but I'll say this. 5 minutes after Ev's colonoscopy she had an mri or ct scan....there was no lineup and she was in and out in less than 5 minutes....and in that time they could scan her entire body for cancer...... Why don't we just make this a standard procedure every few years??????? Have a Great Day. Victor
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      • Anonymous
        Jul 03, 2015
        Thank you so much and man, do i ever agree with that last statement! I am so sorry for causing you pain by answering.
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  2. Anonymous
    Jul 04, 2015
    I too thought Ev should stop the competition training......chicken and broccoli only. WTF!!!! I enjoy both but found myself upset every time I prepared it at that time. And those "fat patches".....???? I truly could not understand why Ev felt so strongly about that body completion; but I came to realize the reason..... wonderful beautiful Ev did not see in the mirror what I saw when I looked at her. One day during the training period I remember taking her by the shoulders and shaking her while saying "The only thing you should see in the mirror is the beautiful young woman that you are" and I truly meant it. Ev just smiled and hugged me. Several times - including the last time I saw her on Oct 27, 2014 - I insisted or perhaps begged her to push the doctor for answers. Ev was too nice and too respectful to do that. But finally she got answers! So many incompetent medical people who saw only the "Lovely"..... the toned body and the brilliant smile.....someone looking like that could not be "sick". NEWS FLASH she was!!! Such a waste!! Vic you are doing an awesome job and so often I don't know how you do it.......but you do. I know how much I miss Ev and therefore I cannot fathom how you must feel. So much love for you. You deserve all the support and love you are getting from those who are close to you. Keep on taking care of the "Ladies" and the Babies. Ev is watching and smiling down on you! Always! xoxxxxxx Maybe I should rather than . Maybe I'll sleep on it and reread in the morning. : ) Nope......
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