Big Weeks….

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Big Weeks

What will we do….this week.

well we start with this….diet…I’m going to take it easy on trying to kill myself with doritos….it’s been fun and all, but I have to put a stop to it…so today we eat right….

what’s next….the glug…this week we will not drink…well, I use the term week loosely….these week days, come Friday I may have a sip…I’ve been known to have a few….

Friday…..maybe not Friday….

I’ve grown….weaker…I know sit here fighting tears…..I fight against what will come…..

Friday…..is Ev’s birthday……..

Yep….I won’t be celebrating that very much…a bit…..I will raise a glass amongst friends…..I will say it….out loud and in my mind…..100 times that day…..a thousand……..a million…………….

wracking…….

No more birthdays……………..

What do you do….well….you live….you do your best………

Yesterday Charlotte and I talked quite a bit about mommy…Charlotte reminded me that she was going to be beautiful like mommy when she grows up….and I told her smart and strong too….which she knows she said…….

And at the grocery store with Syd and Charlotte later mommy came up several times, we usually discuss Ev at the store, the foods she loved and the things she didn’t.  We always pick a few treats that Ev would have chosen and this trip included some mini eggs….

Ev did enjoy her treats, fuel she would burn off later, punishing herself through sweat.

Today will not be my best week but it won’t be my worst.  I will make the most of it and every one to come.

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The Beautiful Evelyn…..

I miss you too much babe…….I’m sorry…..I’m trying……………..

I wonder at this moment how much I will wrack this week….I wrack now…typing through tears…..

I do not want to do this….I don’t…..

….it’s one degree…I just checked…..I’m going for a run………………..

I hope you all have a great day……

XO

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Pain………………PAIN……………….

Come get me……………

  1. Anonymous
    Mar 31, 2015
    Hope u r having a good day as well!
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  2. Anonymous
    Apr 01, 2015
    Love you!
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    • Victor Wheeler
      Apr 01, 2015
      Love you too
      Reply