Avery…aka Ethel….

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Avery…aka Ethel….

Today is Avery’s 11th Birthday…the first of many since her mother passed away…..

wracking….that didn’t take much….

Avery is a beauty…like her mother….she is super athletic…like her mother….smart as a whip….like her mother….

I love my little Avery.

Yesterday was Avery’s first of 2 planned birthday parties, this one spent at the Lone Star…It was a great time and Ave seemed very happy.

Ave isn’t very happy though….Ave starved for her mother’s attention when Ev was here….she is a serious cuddler…and she wanted to be close to Ev…

Her Hero.

Ev was so proud of Ave…she loved that Ave could run to Charlotte’s bus stop every day…from school, and beat the bus….

Babe…..I miss you…………..Avery Skinner birthday

I don’t want to do this anymore….any of it….I’m just so tired of being this…..

I spent a couple of days trying to fake it….pretend I was better…but it just gets packed away…it makes quicksand….and I spent most of the day in it yesterday….it wasn’t my best day….

Sadly I feel a bit of another stage of grief creeping in….Isolation….

Although this is supposed to be part one….I find myself just wanting to pack myself away along with my emotions….

I suppose, again, the kids save me from being able to isolate myself…they either force me to get out with them…or without them….

Well….My darling Ethel, which is Ev’s nickname for Ave, will keep me smiling…proud of her every day. ┬áThis summer Ave is going to give little league and soccer a go…that should keep me out of the house!

Anyway…that’s it for today….I’m hoping to climb out of this right now….this minute….here goes…

  1. Anonymous
    Mar 15, 2015
    Happy Birthday to beautiful Avery.
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  2. Jenn & Ava xo
    Mar 16, 2015
    Hey Vic - Hope Avery had a good day/birthday weekend!!
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