Agonizing….

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Agonizing…

I’m not sure I want to do this today…I don’t want this to kick off another morning like yesterdays….deep in quicksand…

Short man blog, today I hope not to cry….I know I will….but I hope to have a tear pass me by without wracking…

Running some errands yesterday I was struck with a deep feeling of sadness….the quicksand had me…and as I drove down Riverside towards my destination, I was overcome with anger, wanting to scream……wanting to destroy something….myself…

I’m drained….

I’ve had one half decent nights sleep in 2 months, maybe 3….tired…..too tired to think….

poker tonight will be impossible…must rest…I’m begging for a snow day so I can sneak in a nap…Victor Wheeler and Evelyn Wheeler hug it out

I just want to go upstairs and get in bed with Ev and never leave………..

Today will NOT be the first day I do not cry……..

I HATE IT!!!!!

No quote, no weigh in….tomorrow will be better…

I hope you have a great day!

Babe………….babe………I love you……

  1. Anonymous
    Feb 12, 2015
    "Sinking in quicksand , trying to find firmer ground, I look for you but, you are no where to be found. But, still I can feel you reach for my hand, And you whisper in my ear, "I will always be with you my love-now you can stand."
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