Define crazy….

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Define Crazy….

I’m sure there are a lot of times that I don’t seem sane as you read the man blog….and sometimes I don’t seem sane when I look in the mirror…when I start talking to the corners…conversing with Ev….

How much do I talk to my wife…..

Every day….yes…

Every hour….ya………..

So far an hour has not passed that I don’t actually talk with my wife…oh that’s right…she isn’t here……….but I still go on and on, luckily most of the time I have these quiet conversations in my mind…

But not always….and when I start yelling at the corners….well then I wonder just how sane I am…yesterday I argued with the corners, questioning Ev as to why she wouldn’t eat more….you can’t beat this without feeding yourself massive amounts of food….eat eat eat…….

Today will not be the first day I do not cry……..

Sadly my wife lost her fight…and you know what, she was likely going to at some point…whether taken quickly as she was, or slow and painful breaking her heart….I could fight my tears for her, pretend to be strong…but the kids would not have been able to and that would have made her so unhappy…she was too strong to have to watch slowly fade…………..wracking……..

So ya…I yell at corners….but I just want more time….I scream for one more day….

The day of Charlotte Wheeler's birth

One more Day!!!!!!!!!

This photo of my beauty is of the day of Charlotte’s birth….my poor babies………you know what made Ev super happy, wonderfully proud….her girls…

So strong and so smart….she could see her strength in her girls, and little Charlotte doing her burpies and her down dogs…when Ev found out she had cancer, in the hospital when she was wracking out speechless…she moaned Charlotte…knowing that Charlotte was too young for her to leave………..

I Hate it……..

I almost made it the entire day yesterday, after the man blog….but when Syd came in to show me an old video of her playing the guitar, Ev’s voice clear with pride in the background….it was over, and an evening wrack session was on me…

As luck would have it a buddy sent me an invite to watch the game at that moment, which I took him up on….ya…a few moments distraction…..

Lover….I will take good care of our babies….I promise…

Weighing in After Bulking Up

Did I crush a pound of chicken wings, a chocolate bar, a dozen chocolate covered almonds, a bowl of chips and half a cinnabun after 9 pm last night….

um…..ya.

So the boys have been posting a few glamour shots from their vacations…

There is Paul…sending his photos from the Dominican…I commented on his facebook that you know…I am thinner than he is…

I am….

Then there is Beagle…looking thinner…for suresean russett

I mean, yes I had great plans for this photo…I really did…and maybe tomorrow we will move forward with those plans but for now…

Meh…Beagle lost a bunch of weight…enough not to embarrass himself too badly at the beach…

Will I be able to do the same? ¬†We shall see…I’m not sure pounds of chicken wings are going to get me under 210 in the next 12 days but…

Whatever…I hate to punish myself too much…

Like my buddy Andy Trafford, burning through a pair of supportive shoes and compression stalkings a week….trudging through Carlingwood to the swinging beats of Duke Ellington and his orchestra…

 

Skinny Trafford hits the scale this morning down .2 of a pound to 168.4, it’s lost weight….

 

Nothing from Parker…maybe he has faded away to nothingness…but I have my doubts.

 

I was up this morning at an even 215 pounds, but a pound of chicken wings after dark pretty much guarantees there is no way you are going to see a down tick on the scale.

Look at Beagle…some Mexican man just walked away with his burrito and Beagle wants to be sure he can identify him in a yet to develop police line-up…

Today I will crush some weight…I think…it is early…

The Quote of The Day

My doctor told me to stop having intimate dinners for four. Unless there are three other people.
Orson Welles

Not all quotes need to be mystic….this one does apply to me and many of my cohorts…

May we all share the joy of our lives…help each other through the tough times….and boys….let’s raise a glass to my wife………

let’s wrack out Vic….

Babe…I love your face…

Today I thank my family, My Mother and Sister for helping me out, My Mother-inlaw and my new Sisters…I thank my daughter Sydney, she is not only smart and beautiful…she cleaned the house last night…amazing…and my other babies, Avery, Charlotte and Rhiannon…for putting laughter into my life every day.

I love you all.

Not too bad out…and no snow…imagine that….

Have a GREAT day!

 

  1. Anonymous
    Feb 12, 2015
    To Ev and Victor: Corners "I speak to corners everyday, hoping and praying to find you there, Those quiet, still walls is a silence more than I can bear. I shout at corners, demanding answers that I know will never come, But still I try over and over again, no matter what is said and done. And when I feel all is lost, and I don't know what to do- I realize that all these corners, were the wrong ones when I was looking for you. I find you.... In the corners of my mind, I see your gorgeous face, And know that no amount of time, will your smile be erased. I find you..... In the corners of my soul, I can feel your touch so deep- It's a softness that would make the sweetest of angels weep. I find you..... In the corners of my eye, when I look into our beautiful girls faces, The memories of our love-through them, fill those empty spaces. Although, right now I have to be strong and we have to be apart, You live, you breathe, you sigh in the corners of my heart."
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    • Victor Wheeler
      Feb 12, 2015
      Thank you....
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  2. Anonymous
    Feb 12, 2015
    How beautiful it was to read that response!
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