So this is Christmas…

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Man Blog Christmas

That wasn’t much fun at all…

A very sad day for me, having lost someone that loved Christmas so much.  But she gave me lots of hope the past 2 days, signs that better things will come and the knowledge that she is with me…

All right…the corniness of it…

Ev always believed that we were together in past lives, and that we will be together again.  Something I wouldn’t give much to before I met her…

But she meant so much more…she was me life…so it made me believe, it seemed right.  And lately my favorite movie shifted from LA Story to Cloud Atlas…

On Wednesday, on my way out of the Canadian tire, me whistling away minding my own business…an older woman in a commissionaire uniform asked me to fill her windshield washer fluid.  Ev knew how much I enjoyed helping strangers…how I would always pull off the road to help change a tire or push a stranded car out of traffic…shit I used to stop on my way home from work and shovel the same old ladies driveway…

That is what made her love me…my goodness…

Yesterday I was feeling so bad I decided to go for a run, then I did a little bit of circuit training and the moment I finished…Jocelyn sent me a text to check in…

I showered…grabbed my grief book…sat on the sofa…and Michelle Auns sent me a text to check in…the exact moment…

Why?  Coincidence, I guess so.  But it seems like more, for whatever reason.  It means more to me.

Now…I’m ruined right now…I could easily write this off as I’m simply a crazy loon…super easy…

But I choose to believe she is with me right now. Closer than gone…

wraking tears….well I can forget about today being the first day I don’t cry…

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Today I managed to weigh in at 216.4 pounds…and I have to tell you I don’t get it.  I’m eating too much now and losing weight.  In fact, for years while I dieted I ate half what I ate yesterday and gained weight…

It does have me a bit worried.  Yesterday I had 2 eggs for breakfast, a huge plate of turkey leftovers for lunch, a giant plate of pasta for dinner and maybe a dozen cookies throughout the day…shiiiiit  I had 2 dozen for sure…plus I had 4 beers and a shot or 2 of scotch when Derek stopped over late.

I also slept 7 hours last night….

Does my weight loss concern me…yes.  WTF am I dropping now when I couldn’t before…stress?  I don’t know…

Parker is starting a new diet.  I think he said beer just twice a week and only a shake if he wants a late night snack.  Beagle is off to Mexico in a month and a half…he has to step up his starvation diet if he plans on squeezing into his banana hammock.

Me…I have’t been this weight since before Charlotte…stress, must be it.  Anyway…my Doc sees me Jan 5th to do the full checkup, I have to try to stay on top of this old body to keep me around for these kids!

Gentlemen, let’s get those waste lines under control…

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Parker and Beagle finally met last week, it seems impossible that this is the first time their paths have crossed but there it is…a memento of the great event.

It’s easy to give thanks…maybe not as easy in writing but let’s have a go.  GBG…you guys carry me and I appreciate it.  Mike Herzog  and Julie and Ben…thanks for making me wrack tears when I needed to, to know that I always have someone to call…Darren, The Bekker’s, Russett’s, Milne’s, Auns’, Blaney’s, Jocelyn, Claire and the Manotick Toy Shoppe…I don’t know where to begin or end.

You all helped get me through this Christmas…it wasn’t easy…but you all helped.  And plenty more people…Lots of people have sent me messages that get through the fog, and every one gives a little….

The Quote of the Day:

Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye.
H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

It’s that simple…

warm, nice break from last years winter…the long range forecast looks really good too.

Cheers  XO

 

  1. Anonymous
    Dec 26, 2014
    You're such good man Vic
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  2. Anonymous
    Dec 27, 2014
    I'm sure you already know this but its stress & major grief that brings on your weight loss, Vic. I lost 40 pounds after my sister died from cancer . I was too angry & upset to even care about anything for some time. Just ask Mark - he took the brunt of what I went through. I'm glad you're seeing the doctor. He'll make sure you're OK. And keep writing your blog. It wll help you & it helps everyone who cares about you. I like reading about Evelyn since I hardly knew her. XOXOXOXO Silvia
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